Renewing My Motivation

It's a warm breezy late afternoon in Seattle and I just got up from a nap.  There has been a lot going on lately which has taken some patience and humility to handle.  I hope I'm getting better at dealing with these things by now, because this seems to be my plight. At least for now.   I know amazing things lie before me, yet I eagerly await for their arrival. 

I've noticed lately that I have been very tired. Dealing with so much can really wear a person down. But at the same time, I'm starting to feel really energized.  I feel like I have left so much of the negative behind, even though I experienced a lot of good through those things as well...  Hm. Weird, huh? Well, despite that, I know I'm going the right direction, still on this journey called life, still working toward my dream...

So, before I moved to Berlin two years ago, I was working hard on my dining room and kitchen renovation, selling stuff and getting ready to go.  My dream was to go to Germany and God blessed it far beyond my wildest dreams.  My dream is the same, but I'm realizing that my motivation is not there right now.  The dream has never changed.  Only my circumstances have. I've learned a ton, and God is working powerfully on my heart.  So there is still GREAT hope. 

So, back to motivation....  Whenever I think of my friends in Berlin, my experiences there, the city itself, etc., I always smile.  I miss all of them with all my heart. Sometimes I just come home from work and sit in front of my computer and "veg" out.  Which is okay to do sometimes.  I've decided that I am going to put up pictures of all my friends around my desk, pictures of the city and the places I've been there, to motivate me to write. Write so that I can return to the place that God has placed next to him, deep in my heart. It will be a motivational collage, to remind me that my dream is worth fighting for, THEY are worth it, and God most certainly is worth it.  I can't wait to get these up on my wall to see every day.  To make me smile, and to remind me of the incredible beauty of this dream God has given me.

I'm also very excited for some time off.  It's been since December that I have had more than 3 days off in a row to enjoy some "me" time.  Starting Saturday, I have SIX glorious days off in a row, which I am hoping to fill up with some northwest beauty...  I absolutely cannot wait!!!  It will likely be a staycation, but I would like to go to a beach for the day or something... 

There's a lot more to say, but I'll leave it there for now.  I'm trying to spend less time online and more time doing things that will help my dream come to fruition sooner than later. So, thanks for checking in on me and I hope to update again sometime in the next couple weeks!